Reflection_In the face of

On experiences for the learning’s sake, staying in my gravity field in the face of another’s experience, and on the option to learn from love; with a short harp improv at the end.

I reflect on a recent experience which I call to “volunteer for someone to have an experience”. Something that, if I can master it, feels like a big treat both for another and for myself in times when it seems that the pressure is on for resolving patterns that hinder human kind to shift into a different gear. What does it mean to volunteer for another to have an experience? How do you hold your base frequency in the face of another having an (emotional, intense) experience? And a soft call for learning from love with a short harp improv at the end.

When did we forget that an experience is an offer from the universe? And we have the choice if we want to grow through it and learn from it. Sometimes we lose that choice somehow, because of being so involved with the experience. We are losing sight of this broader context. And that some experience has come, so that I can learn from it. And if I don’t, it just means to have something in my field that is maybe not as much of service as it could be. And that’s it. But that also means that sometimes the opportunity doesn’t come back. In this manifestation right here, right now. Maybe somewhere else, in a parallel life that is happening. But I feel it’s like, own as much as you can of all the experiences that want to happen through you, and you want to have in the here and now, because if not, somehow it’ll balance out, but that means that someone else might have to have that experience. Not for you, but, like, the collective, for that experience to be had; for consciousness, or the universe; not sure what the right idea is here. We all signed up for something and to just be with that and try to whatever comes my way, meet it, and experience it without forgetting that this is for the experience sake, for the learning that is embedded in this experience. And going in without knowing really what the learning is already. Meeting people, when they have an experience and for them to have an experience and face it. Or be me in the face of them having their experience and me being a part of that. Which means that I can have an experience knowing that this is me contributing to someone else having an experience that they really want to have and learn from, without losing myself in the experience, which never really is helpful, but especially not when it’s not my learning to have. And meanwhile, I can learn from that. But sometimes we volunteer to show up for another. And not lose myself in that experience because it’s not my primary concern. I’m not the primary learner here, but I can learn from it. Any experience. So, holding my base frequency, that which feels like I’m centred, level, not thrown off into some emotional or thought-based turmoil or stirring, or a reaction. That’s what it feels like to me to be on my base frequency and living that and feeling that and just being that in those moments when another has an experience where I volunteered to show up for. To really stay in my own gravity field. Be a vessel for sacred neutrality. That’s something I wished for the other day, and it was helpful for me, as I was going through an experience that I didn’t want to have. But it was helpful for the other one to learn from. When I say I didn’t want to have, it’s something that I’ve had experienced and learned from before sufficiently, I guess. At least in my idea-world. Always something to learn. Understanding when I show up for something or someone that this is also always for me, in some way, or at least I can, you know, shift something within me to make this experience as pleasant as it can be, as insightful and light bringing ~ insight bringing ~ as possible; while bringing some peace and gratitude to that moment. And acknowledging that while I had this beautiful experience of being a vessel for sacred neutrality in the moment, my senses recorded it all. And it was processed according to the patterns that are already within me, which include memories and pathways. And patterns that bring up a certain frequency, like sadness, a certain quality of existence within me.

So, acknowledging that effect that showing up for someone who wanted to have an experience, had on me. This experience, for one, allowed me to be in the face of, and I allowed for it to mark me. That even though I was in sacred neutrality in the moment, it is an opportunity for me to see what is there for me to make peace with. Meaning, to find the learning and integrate it. And I guess when I say primary learner, because this integration is a big one for me, it’s helpful for me. But I feel that certain conditions, certain experiences are more effective for certain learnings and integrations. This kind of being in the face of’ wasn’t the condition that I, yeah, that’s the most helpful for my learning of this integration. But it works, I guess. It’s just that the multitude of expressions of the potential of how we learn, in various ways, is really, it’s endless. And so one miss, seemingly missed anything, it really isn’t anything missed because it’ll just show up in a different shape. And now ‘I’ ~ as the bundle of patterns that I sit here ~ have an opinion about which shape is the most pleasant for me. And I do truly want to learn from love in the future. It’s something that I think humankind has forgotten a bit.

Thank you.